a small essay on the energy budget
I’m feeling hopeful about how things are unfolding. I’m also aware of how crazy the world is right now, and I’m doing my best to meet it with grace, humor, and optimism.
This year I finished a series of energy sessions that stretched across 2026. I can’t explain them in a sentence, but the result is easy to describe: my inner sense of self has grown steadier, and so has my peace. From there, it’s easier to respond and make choices that support me.
It got me thinking about energy as a budget.
Picture an ordinary day. How much of your attention goes to inner conflict? The critical voice. The wants and shoulds arguing. If I had to guess, and these are guesses, not measurements, maybe 10 or 20 percent.
Then there are the old stories. The things, people and topics that trigger you. The resentment you revisit, the fear that has stuck around since one bad experience. A little here, a little there. Maybe 5 percent to an old pain, 15 to a person you can’t let go of.
Add it up and ask how much is left to create what comes next.
Not very much.
I’m not saying pretend those things aren’t real. They are. But I notice that when I’m steadier inside, less of my energy gets triggered, and more is available for what I want to build.
Here’s a small example. I’m excited about an upcoming trip with my daughter, and I wanted to talk about everything: what we might do, what to bring, a few quirky things I’d run across. She isn’t answering as quickly as I’d like, and I felt the impatience rise. But she has a business, three kids, and a household, and I understand. Besides, most of it doesn’t need planning now. We’ll figure it out there. It was just me being excited. So I let it be.
The bigger world asks for energy too. Our political climate almost demands a reaction, but I’ve noticed that getting angry mostly hurts me. So I vote, and I put my energy into adding goodness where I can.
For me, working with my electromagnetic field (EMF) has been a primary way to release the charges of the past. I’ve found that when I do, I keep its wisdom, and the energy comes back to me to use as I choose. And when I’m connected inside, what I do next comes from a quieter, deeper place.
Choosing, I’ve found, takes capacity and awareness. Building them is what the work has been for me.
There’s acceptance of what is. And then a choice, from my own inner guidance: act, consider another version of it, or let it go.
Suzanne
P.S. The Balancing Technique: Evolutionary Foundations is available on demand if you’d like to explore this work yourself.
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